Went to see the doctor yesterday for one of my regular monthly check ups and to get a sick note for work. After we had a chat and I told him how bad the last couple of weeks had been, he discussed my meds with me and the dose I'm on. After I told him how I felt about them he asked me what I wanted to do - either stay on the ones I'm on but go to the highest dose OR swap to another medication after being weaned off my current meds first. I chose to stay with the devil I know and decided to stick with what I've got and the higher dose with the option of changing later.
So took my first dose of 200 mg this morning and once it kicked in, as I knew it would, I've felt crap all day. Not in my head but physically - I'm edgy, twitchy and feel "wired" like theres a small electric charge running over my skin as well as starting to feel that my head is being stuffed with cotton wool. I guess this is for the best but I have held off for months if not a year from going to the higher level just because of how I know I'm going to feel for the next couple of weeks. Logically I know that it's probably for the best but it still feels like a defeat, like the dog is winning.
Guess that all for now as need to go try relax and let the meds do their thing.
No comments:
Post a Comment